Hello again, my dear friends. - A letter to my past.

Hello my friends. It has been so long since I last paid this blog a visit. Blowing off the dust and seeing my visions from when I was a child to now is a journey I did not expect. Over the past decade, I dedicated myself to writing short poems and short stories. Some were full of love and happiness, while others took us to the trenches of teenage sorrows. Here I am now, at age 23, with a journey that is still ongoing. In 2011, I wrote a piece called "Destination, Tokyo." It was definitely full of stereotypes and was too short. This year, I actually did fulfill my life long dream and went to Japan for about two months. Both the countryside and the cityside - and such wonderful experiences they were. No, I did not have a house with goldfish. However, I did find nine new families to visit. My fascination with this beautiful country is still there and I was not at all disappointed with the wonderful experience I had. Japan, however, is only one of the many countries I got to explore. In the last few years I have been to India, Nepal, Canada, China, Mexico, Turkey, and Costa Rica. And all have been wonderful experiences. I also got the oppurtunity to travel across the many states here in America. My life itself has been a road trip of its own. We had freeways to race and road blocks. Red lights, green lights. Bumpy roads with curving twists and turns. But somehow, this decade I persevered. Graduated highschool, dropped out of two colleges before finding the right one. And I am still working my way up. Found new friends, got rid of some old ones. Life happens. Through these trials, one thing has remaind consistent. I have never stopped writing. Even if I was not here, the ghost of this blog has kept me prescence. I am now pursuing an English degree and I continue to write and read on a daily. Thank you for following me on this journey. Perhaps, I shall come back to update this blog soon - after all, I could never say goodbye.

Sorry for being inactive

Sorry I've been so inactive, but I shifted most of my thoughts to Tumblr and my stories on to Wattpad. Sorry!!

Epic Positivity

You will turn out to be a strong teenager, the one who thinks headfirst. Be careful with your tongue, it could get you in trouble. Learn to believe in yourself, and just be who you are. Keep smiling, stay positive. I know you will be worried about internet friends, your phone, and what not, but also worry about school. Your studies will get you ahead, and call for help when you need it. I know, life is hard, but keep your head held high. Follow what YOU want, but remember that family has got your back.  Be kind and confident. Become a rockstar, a doctor, or whatever you may please,  but also do good in school. Be careful of your surroundings and how people feel, but make sure YOU are also in tact. Keep reaching the stars and grasping your dreams with the hands that you have. Everything is laid out before you if you keep trying. Remember, no one can stop you from doing what you want except for you. Keep dreaming, but work for it.

-Anam xx

Meeting Robert Kaplow

So, on Tuesday, March 3, 2015, I met the author of Me and Orson Welles, Robert Kaplow. It was in my Creative Writing class at the Arts High in Middlesex County. Anyways, we were able to ask him questions, and even though I am not able to remember all the questions, here were the few that He did answer (I don't remember the whole response)

http://robertkaplow.com/



S=Student
R=Robert Kaplow

S: How involved were you in the making of the film?

R: I was pretty involved, to be honest. I was able to meet the people who were in the film, and without my book, no one would be in the studio (shot in England and Ireland, by the way). I told my girlfriend, in fact, that without my book, none of these people would have these jobs, which are high paying jobs too. Technicians and engineers were working everywhere, every small detail. 

S: Did you play a big role in casting? Did you imagine Zac Efron playing the main character?

R: I didn't play a huge role in casting, it was mostly Linklater (Richard Linklater, Director of Boyhood and At Sunset) In fact, one day, Richard calls me up and asks me "Guess who I just had lunch with?" and I ask "Who?" He tells me "Zac Efron" and then there is a moment of silence, about like 5 minutes and the Richard asks "You don't know who he is do you? and I said I didn't and he tells me that he is like this hot actor from L.A. Working with Zac was pretty cool. He is humble guy, and even while shooting the film, he came up to me and said "You know, I can't believe I'm doing this." When we went to the Toronto Film Festival, we didn't see the movie and so we were finally able to see a special screening of it. After that, since Zac was the star he had to go from the elevator...anyways, I was also back by the elevator and I am slowly walking up to Zac. He has his eyes down, probably thinking that "Oh no, this guy is going to bash my performance, holy cow" and I just tell him "You were effin' spectacular!' and he gives me a hug. Claire Danes also just kind of wanted to do the role. 

S: Do like the life you are living right now, or the life before as a starving writer?

R: I wouldn't say I was a starving writer, nothing much has really changed. I was a teacher, so I did have a lot of connections, but life has gotten a bit easier. It took me nine years to actual get the book published...I finished writing it in 1994, but I was finally able to find the publisher in 2003. 

S: Did you expect the book to become a movie?

R: Uh, as I was writing it, I did imagine it as a play, like the connection between backstage and onstage, but I did not really see it coming out as a film. I was just lucky to have the right person see my book on the bookshelf at the right time. 

S: Why did you choose to write a book on Orson Welles?

R: I was huge fan of him for a very long time. He changed a lot of the media, the radio; back then the entertainment form was the radio; and I heard a lot about him from my dad. In fact, I feel like I made my main character a lot like my dad. The sense of humor, the age. But at the same time, I put a lot of myself in there too. But, yeah I was a huge fan of Orson ,and so i just decided to write a book on it. It was based on a true story.

S: Was it hard to find the right person to play Orson? How did you settle on Christian McKay?

R: Yes, it was really tough to find Orson. Um, but down in New Brunswick (New Jersey) there was a bouncer on Rutgers campus. Mean old grouch who actually into theater. He called me up, I still kept in touch with him, and he tells me "You should see this guy" and he tells me a Broadway show starring Christian McKay and here I am at the show and I think to myself, this is my guy. So I call over Richard Linklater and make him see this show, and he takes Christian McKay in. Now Christian was this chap from London just trying to lead a new life in New York, and now he is this famous star.

I don't remember all of the questions and answers, but yeah, here was just a part of the interview our class had with Robert Kaplow, and it was really cool.

2014: Social Media Review

Wow, so much has happened on my Instagram and Twitter and Google Plus in 2014, and I just need to report it on here.

Instagram (add me: @penguin.hoodie (fanpage) @anxm_17 (personal))

 @johndalt follows me

I hit 1.2k follows

@officialbrightside follows

Twitter (@rebel_chic17)

I get 800 followers

@EleanorJCalder (Louis Tomlinson's girlfriend) follows and replies to my DM

@amyvalentinex favorites my tweets

@steamfaeire (Kota Wade) notices, replies, and retweets my tweets

@christinaperri and @edsheeran indirectly respond to my tweet by working on a collab

Google Plus 

+Its Ari (Ariana Grande) Likes, comments, and adds me

+Liam Payne adds me (again)

+Leigh Leigh Pinnock (Leigh-Anne Pinnock) adds me.

Propaganda Love

We only want to make
him jealous,
a propaganda love.

Like 2+2=5,
Everyone believed it,
although they know,
that 2+2=4.

Slowly, though, the feelings
became real.
And I had to remind
myself,
it was propaganda love.

How was I still
even with you,
propaganda love.

Like 2+2=5,
I had to believe it
was real,
even though I know,
2+2=4.

Once he was hurt,
completely,
we had to "break up"
and I remembered,
it was only propaganda love.

What if we could make
it real?
What if?
What if?
But that would mean
2+2=5, when in reality,
2+2=4.

(1984 Quote)

It Only Takes A Woman

To let go is hard,

because you can't let go

completely,

but you are a man,

and it only takes a woman

to do that kind of work.

Crying heartbroken,

but still force a smile,

it only takes a woman

to do that kind of work.

Keeping the patience and

not look like a vulnerable 

child,

Yeah, you are a man,

but it only takes a woman 

to do that kind of work.

Sticking out confidence,

while dying inside.

You are only a boy,

and it only takes a 

woman

to do that kind of work.

So you men pretend 

to be macho,

and easily play around.

But we are woman,

and we hide our feelings,

we cry inside, 

but you are men,

so you won't understand

that it only takes

a woman to do that

kind of work.

(To Kill A Mockingbird Quote)